The word Serenity has been on my mind a lot this past week.
How can I find Serenity with 5 kids . . .
2 of them boys (who are ALL boy) . . .
one of them a girl that makes all boys look calm and serene . . .
a baby who loves to be held, but only by me . . .
and is into everything . . .
and still hasn't learned to sleep at night?
How can I find Serenity with constant noise . . .
the aforementioned kids . . .
a husband who LOVES to watch TV in the evening . . .
a crying baby . . .
a media and technology loving family?
How can I find Serenity with a never ending to do list . . .
kids to teach . . .
a house to keep up . . .
a family to keep fed (on as little money as possible) . . .
not to mention outside forces pulling at my time.
How can I find Serenity in the midst of chaos?
As I begin my journey to Serenity I have more questions than answers. I see obstacles. I wonder if it's possible. And, yet my soul longs for peace . . . calm . . . Serenity
This year I am going to spend time in prayer with my Father . . . asking Him to help me find Serenity. I plan on searching God's Word for verses to help me on my journey. I plan on making small changes in my life, to give me the Serenity my heart desires.
As I've been pondering all this, God has whispered into my heart, "Serenity doesn't come when the world around me is calm, but when my inner spirit finds calm DESPITE the chaos around me."
And so, that is where I am. This year I am going to try to find Serenity in the midst of the chaos. I'm going to try to put my focus on my Savior. But . . . I'm also hoping to inject a little Serenity into my chaotic surroundings.